I have thought about the pro and con for two days whether to join the team, finally, the natural burning passion win the battle.

Really don’t want to miss an opportunity that we can start up, maybe a prosperous business in future. Let’s hope we can steer it unstoppably into the unknown water for a long long time.

One thing I want to share with you is that I was in Unico company’s Town Hall meeting last Friday. One of the two co-founders of the company, Mike Palmer, gave a speech in front of whole company’s 160+ colleagues before his retirement. He briefed company’s history, started from two people, and ups and downs during the last 24 years. There are several things impressed me in his speech:

1. a company must has its culture. And this culture must be from top down
2. when Unico started, they have the goals like do the interesting work and be proud of the work been done

“Treat other people like the way you treat yourself” is the final punchline of the speech. This the same one of my favourite quotes from Confucius – If you don’t want something done onto yourself, don’t do it onto others.

This IT veteran career story really make people think. But what a coincidence you called me on same day night about work on the project. Is it an omen?

Maybe I’m talking a bit too far from right now. Anyway, back to business. Start the engine and let’s rock.

More brain food for 150MB per person per month policy:

1. One of my good mate is a TPG (ISP) customers. He is on 600MB per month plan. My mate is not a computer junkie. He only uses internet mainly to check his hotmail, send his kids’ latest photos around, and read news online. And he uses all his quote every month. So there are always a few Spanish Inquisition days every month, he has to be tortured by TPG downgrading his internet speed from blissful ADSL2+ to brittle 64kb dial up.

TPG declares 600MB is designed to people do internet surfing and email. Several other ISPs also have the similar package. It seems that it is common practice 600MBish is let people jump on the internet.

2. Last night I set up all my browsers (Firefox and SeaMonkey) to disable load all images, install AdBlock Plus and FlashBlock plugins. Browsers are much quicker while loading pages. They are more like a Lynx Windows version now.

However, while I check web usage today, I find there is not much different comparing the first two days when the browsers in their full blow mode. Google site still the top one, still eats as much quote as used to be.

If you don’t have enterprise level knowledge based solution, if you don’t have a decent desktop search engine help you find info at your finger, Google is still the first place you want to go.

Google represents the trend today that more and more companies moving from traditional desktop applications to web based, network centralised solution. To enforce this quote policy, with such low permit, IMHO, it really frustrates people who want to get shared information and knowledge from the net in a more intelligent and efficient way.

Don’t know how Unico implement quota on Squid Proxy. Unless can have more sophisticated quote solution, e.g, depends on different projects you are working, individuals can have different quote. This “one size fits all” solution seems more impracticable than achieving great cost savings.

The point I reckon is that the company should respect staff as professionals. The majority want to come to office and get job done, happily. Pay too much attention on those small issues really distract people from their work and will kill the free thinking, creation and productivity in work place definitely.

Things I I like to see is people know that a line over there, know that big brother is watching you, and you know you shouldn’t cross that line.

However, you don’t need to have to check how far away you from that line everyday…

Thank you.

• 几天前在５４６０上转发自我博客的“有信仰的人是坚强的，有爱心的社会是和谐的”文章，号动在澳洲的中国朋友踊跃为 Earthquake Relief 捐款，但不知何故被“删你没商量”了。

• 闲着没事经常胡思乱想在中国现在物欲横流，道德水准一路下跌的今天，何时还能出现像老毛，老邓这样的英雄。常自言自语道：“世上无英雄遂让陈希冠这个竖子成名”。但地震让我明白了“英雄不常有，只是未到时”。

• 这次地震中新闻报道中的高开放，高透明度体现了一个真正大国应有的自信。历史上许多转折点往往伴随着重大事作的发生。有感这次汶川地震可能成为中国开始走向有中国特色的民主与自由的始发时刻。

• 看到吾辈同学自愿领养地震遗孤，深深感动。管子曰：“仓廪实而知礼仪，衣食足而知荣辱”。富强的中国才能做到“人人为我，我为人人”。

• 地震联系你我，患难之中见真情。贡献无所谓大小。感谢此时此刻的你为中国呐喊加油。

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May 13, 2008 is a normal day to me. I finished work till 2:30am. Before I fell into sleep, I had a quick check of the sports news on Sina. Suddenly, the news about biggest earthquake in Chinese recent history (中国地震局将汶川地震震级从7.8级修订为8.0级) in WenChuan, an unknown country town SiChuan Province and more than two thousands people already died came across me. I was totally in shock. Immediately, I made a call to my home in Beijing. Luckily there is no network congestion at all. My father answered the phone. Everything OK there. When I finished the call, it’s already 3:30am.

The morning in office is totally uneasy, full of anxious and worries. The Sina website was overloaded. I couldn’t open any other pages except the front one. I tried several times after work to call home again. This time all failed to reach.

Next few days after earthquake erupted, I followed all the news I could get. A lot of old time memories came back to me. Year 1976, 唐山大地震后的第一天，我父母抱着我和４岁的弟弟，穿着雨衣，坐在两个板凳上，与一群无助的人们，在雨中待了一天一夜的情形始终历历在目。

When I saw the photo several kids crumpled together under the debris after rescue workers found their bodies, I couldn’t hold my tears. Why human beings are so vulnerable (感觉人的生命是如此脆弱)? Why 佛祖 (Buddha) 说生命只在呼吸之间? I can only tell me this is life.

However, almost on the same day, when I saw another photo, a student holds a drip and helps his schoolmate trapped in the rubble of a high school in Beichuan, waving people for help, suddenly, I felt human beings are also so strong IF YOU BELIEVE hope still alive (感觉人的生命又是如此的顽强). Because human beings are also live in a cooperated community (团结协作的群体).

天道无情人却有情。Soon after the catastrophe happened in China, Earthquake relief donation has been quickly set up by Chinese Consulate in Melbourne. 做为炎黄子孙的一员，I urge all the people if you still have 中国人的血液在流淌, please show your love, sympathy, generosity and support to all the WenChuan Earthquake victims and their family, no matter you have already realised your dreams oversea, no matter you still in fighting with any other kind difficulties here. One thousand dollars are never more. One dollar is never less (一千元不算多，一元钱不算少). This is the time. This is the time that we can show to the world – 中国人不仅可以成功地举办奥运，而且中华民族是一个伟大坚强的民族，中国人是永远不会被任何艰难险阻打垮的。

“问世间情为何物，直教人生死相许”。Today, Jan 15^th, is the two years anniversary Sharon and I knowing each other. I want put that sentence in a paper greetings to Sharon. Ironically, I have to go to the Magistrate’s court this day to celebrate it. I’m defending the case Sharon Li (李杉) accused me stalking her.

I get up earlier, take the public transportation to the Court. I have collected a lot evidences to tell the Judge the stories, the true stories, nothing but the whole true stories between Sharon and me. And also the evidences against the false allegation listed in Sharon’s complaint.

I have been there waiting for whole day, but Sharon doesn’t show up. So the case is stuck out in the end by the Court.

Here is final words in my testimony I prepared.

“Sharon, I will still stand with my words I said when we broke up – Whenever you need my help , no matter where you are, I’m only one call or one email away.

Sharon, you asked me before do you believe I can find a man 比你更出色? My answer was ‘Yes, I do’. At this moment, I still believe that.

Sharon, if you can find such man, 比我更出色, 比我更理解你, 比我更爱你的, show me.”

This chat is excerpted between I and the good lady who introduced Sharon Li (李杉) to me.

Just let you know I went to Sharon‘s place yesterday. Let her know I want to finish two years obsession to her. Time to move on. I reckon I have done all the best I can do, as a man with responsibility, although I was numb, blunt and stupid a lot time.

I have published and I am going to publish more true stories under the series title “爱的宣言” about Sharon and me on my personal blog, without her permission. I know it’s not nice. But I still can’t calm down inside me to a few things she said and did to my other friends and me.

Call me a narrow-minded guy. But I have my words here – I will forgive Sharon one day, to all she did inappropriately I reckon to a person who once really loved her and was very nice to her. But not now, not at the moment.

I just want to say many thanks to you for introducing Sharon to me. Although it’s not a happy end story, I don’t regret at all. I found more new friends, knowing myself better, and becoming maturer and stronger in mind during last two years.

Meanwhile I have to say I’m a normal man as well. I have my selfishness and weakness. Although I shared some my experience with you, you can take as a reference, not as an advice. I am failed and tumbled on my personal relationship too.

I really don’t know about girls two years ago. I never had a formal relationship with girls before. From now, I can see I missed a lot of opportunities. Sharon has already signaled to me, but I hesitated. Maybe I was too greedy, selfish and never satisfied. In fact, I didn’t have my commitment at all at that moment. As soon as I realise I need to catch up, it was too late. This is bad luck. And maybe just Sharon and I don’t have this fortune to be together.

But there is no harsh feeling to you at all.

Furthermore, I don’t think Sharon is a nasty girl, although she has her upfront, dominant characteristic to others that really upset me when she already in her mature age. These are just the things happened between two person. No one is absolutely right, no one is totally wrong.

When I asked Sharon Li (李杉) whether I could do a favour for her, because she was out of job for a while, because I had some personal business connection I reckoned maybe help. Sharon told me:

“Help what? Do u think u r the God? I M FINE. Mind ur own business. Get a theropist (therapist. Actually Sharon means psychiatrist) first.“

I replied:

“Sharon, I’m not God or Superhero. I’m just a normal man loves his girl, wishes she’s all right, wishes she can live a better life, has freedom to choose what she wants to do, not what she has to. I try to bring you more opportunities, security and make the pursuit of your dreams a little easier. This is my obligation and commitment.“